Why the change of heart...?

It really trips me out when people from my past see me years later, and then asks me out. It's just so funny to me. You knew me all through high school, but it's when you see me years later, you realize that you have a thing for me. I find it even more funny when it comes from guys who would have never taken an interest in me in high school. They would be in a completely different category. I was the girl in the Taylor Swift song, "You belong with me." Always the best friend, never the girl friend. It's not that I wasn't pretty, cause I think I was gorgeous, I was just different from all the other girls in my school. Plus, I wasn't really into dating in the first place. But still... I guess I have turned into some type of swan, or butterfly, or something.

I wonder if it has something to do with the fact that the girls they would have normally gone for in high school are either pregnant, they let themselves go, or are lesbians (This is a general statement. There are some who are very lovely and are very driven). I know it's bad on my part to jump to conclusions, and I'm no saint at all what so ever to be judging anyone else, but I fail to understand.

I have reached a point in my life where I am happy being me, with no man in my life. And it's only then that I have found my niche, people want to pop up out of no where. But I like simply being Khabi, with none of the confusions, head aches, or man problems. I get pushed and poked about marriage as soon as people hear that I am about to graduate (December 13th, where art thou?). Can't I just focus on school and my career?

Well that's my little rant for the week. Good luck on finals. 

Hiding...

I thought I would have come out of hiding by now, but I guess not. My heart hasn't been in this in a while. Hopefully sometime soon I get my inspiration back. Thank you to those who still check in at times. I'm surprised when the stats say 30 people have viewed my page in one day.

There has been something troubling my mind for a while that I wanted to put out there. I didn't want to go on a rant on twitter of facebook because I didn't feel right sharing this on there. So I'm sharing it on here.

I have an issue with people who go Greek. I have no problem with people going Greek exactly. If that's what you choose to do, then I support you all the way. And I completely understand that it is a difficult process to go through. Typically, it's so you can become a better man or woman. But my issue is, once you cross, you forget about everyone else who was in your life before you pledged. The people who supported you when the only letters you had were those in your name. It's a pattern I has started seeing with a lot of my friends, even the ones that don't go to my school. What is it about going Greek that makes people start to act brand new?

Some might argue that because they have gone through such a process with a certain group of people and now they are brothers or sisters. But what about those people who were your brothers or sisters before you ever thought about crossing? Because those people in that sorority or fraternity would not claim you if it had not been for the fact that you chose to join them.

For some reason I get sad when one of my friends confides in my that they are think about pledging or is pledging. I feel like they are crossing over to the dark side. But not everyone is like that. There are some people who come back to their friends, and never treat them differently. I guess I'm just not that memorable...

Well that's my little rant. Enjoy the rest of your week.